Letters from a Man with a Hundred Lovers | Shia Chang
#1
When I think of spring, all I can think about was the moment I saw you. One glance was all it took. My heart was stolen and forever yours. Your laugh of delight, the flush on your cheeks, and the brightness of your eyes, that even stars envy, ensnared me but gods help me, for I do not want to be free. I cannot imagine me without you.
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#2
I thought myself crazy when I saw you. I must be going crazy. You are all I can think about. I have never seen a smile so innocent yet devious. Only you can make my heart flutter with excitement. How I long to be with you. My heart has never felt this way. You are my new beginning, my second chance. I am nothing without you.
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#3
Is this a cruel twist of fate done by the heavens? Why have you appeared when I have already resigned to living without love? A few lines of poetry does not do your beauty justice. I am taken by you and every single word that is uttered. Your existence makes me believe in love all over again. I shall never love another for you are my only love.
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#10
Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise. I exist to love you. My body, heart, and soul belong to an unassuming you. Before your first breath and even after you’ve become one with this earth, I am yours through and through. I wait for you. I love because of you.
#17
The world has begun to move. Iridescent colors seeped through my windows and into my skin. I have lived for so long, but never alive. Once I saw you, blood rushed throughout my body, my cheeks are colored, my skies are blue, and once again I have fallen for you.
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#21
My time with you is too short. I have just started to love you, yet time has already passed us by. Your smiles, scent, and all of you fill me up but it isn’t enough. There is a hole in me that cannot be filled. How will the winters be without your warmth? Spring will inevitably bring tears to my eyes. Soon you will be gone and I will be alone again.
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#32
No love compares to yours. I am nothing without you. I want you. I need you. I am yours through life and death.
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#44
Being without you is death itself. If I cannot have you then what am I? If I am without you yet death does not come, then am I not one of the strongest men to have existed? One to rival even the gods? Am I not a god? Or am I a sinner and you, my punishment? You are my only love, and it breaks my heart that I am without you.
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#53
How long have I waited? Many springs have gone by, yet you are not here. I have waited for so long. I am still waiting.
#65
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#76
I miss you.
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#87
Perhaps you find my sentiments laughable. I am nothing but a silly man who has too much time. A significant amount of time must have passed for plum blossoms have already begun to bloom. Another spring passes me by, another spring without you.
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#99
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#101
I continue to love you for a hundred lifetimes, yet you do not remember a single one. But I am a fool, really, I am. One look from you and I am taken back to that spring… the moment I saw you. And I fall in love all over again.
Shia Chang is a writer who dabbles in all genres: fiction, nonfiction, and poetry. She is currently a senior at UW-Green Bay and will be graduating with a bachelor's degree in Fine Arts in May. When she is not writing, she enjoys crocheting, playing Animal Crossing, and reading.